Well....I haven't updated this in about a month or so, and since a certain person keeps pestering me to do it...here we go :) Not a lot has happened, hence my delay in updating this. But I will find something to talk about that hopefully won't put anyone to sleep....
Hmmm...what has been on my mind lately....Well mostly the future I guess. I have filled my days and boring work hours with what could/would/should happen in the upcoming few months and years. I make plans and then just pass time waiting for them to happen. But what happens while I wait for my life to get better/richer/easier? Am I missing out on valuable time or experiences with my family? Maybe. Do I spend too much time trying to map out every aspect of our future? Yes. It occured to me that no matter what happens in my life, I will always be able to find something I want, something that seems better than what I have. Then I wonder....Why? What's the point? The more times I think I have everything planned, the more often my plans change. So what to do....
Yes, Jason and I should have a plan and goals that we work for. But spending all of my time thinking and planning....that needs to stop. When I stop and look around, I realize that lo and behold, I am happy! I have an amazing husband and a daughter that I can't get enough of. I am very blessed, and I think that as long as I realize that and work in a non-obsessive way to do my best to create a good life with my family...I will be all set. I should spend more time working on creating an even better marriage, being a good parent, and a good person. So, in conclusion, I am going to work on becoming a little less crazy and to enjoy my life as it is, not wish away the time I have. Jason will be happy to hear this...he probably gets a liiiiitle tired of my incessant planning.
Peace Out Girl Scout :)
